jesus fucking christ, clara you're dead this is some sixth sense fucking bullshit you can't have snarky banter with dead people don't kick someone while they're down YOU DON'T GET MUCH MORE DOWN THAN DEAD, CLARA
because you're young Even when you expect death its a big deal. It's losing someone that's a thread in your life, something unraveling. It's a person whose voice you never hear again. A piece of the universe that's gone. They stop being all made up of stars and dust and history and they become the dust. Dearh is always important because life is always important. Your life is important.
You should be... fuck, I don't know, skipping through a field of poppies or starting some bizarre hipster cactus collection or complaining about getting a mortgage or being the best teacher you can be. You shouldn't be dead.
you don't have to tell me about threads and dust i know what it means to lose someone too soon i know about waking up every morning and forgetting that they're six feet underground and wanting to join them as soon as you remember because that's where half of you is already none of that is news
the world is terrible and it's wonderful and i never asked to be safe i lived every single day risking my life so there's not a bit of me that regrets my death i regret that my best friend had to see it and that my dad's alone but i'm not sad about being dead
Then you know what you're saying ignores the feelings of every person around you. It wouldnt matter if your mate saw it or not, itd still take their guts out.
Honestly i can't figure out if I respect you or if you're a self obsessed duckhead
*don't even
But you make Cosima lose someone she loves because of your reckless bullshit then I'll set up a loop of jazzercise videos over your grave
[Oh look it's her defensive egomania, coming to the rescue.]
look sarissa i can't promise nothing will ever happen to me i'm not going to sit on my hands in a padded room but if something does happen then i can swear to you that it won't be my choice i'm going to be careful, for cosima and brianna they're my family now
( there is a pause before she replies, but not as long as the reply before i tagged back because she's not as rude as me. oops. )
You don't have to sit on your hands or not do anything. Just let those of us who aren't going to be tearing pieces of other people with us take the heat. You don't get to take risks when Cosima or Bree'll get hurt.
what the hell, sarissa you're their actual family cosima would rather you live over me any day, i can tell you that so stop with the pointless self-sacrifice which i realize is a completely hypocritical thing for me to say but i mean it you have a huge, real family that loves you don't be a bloody martyr
Family isn't that simple. Blood doesn't mean shit, Clara. You're the family she chose. We're sisters but we didn't grow up together, we got jack all in common. I know I'm the liability. I walked into your home with a gun because I don't know how to look after family. If it came down to it, I'd rather she had the people she chose to bring into her life than the moron that she's stuck with by virtue of dna.
hey you did that because you love your sisters you were trying to take care of them in your own way and yes it was stupid and reckless and i'm still very cross about it but i've attempted far worse for love
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you're dead
this is some sixth sense fucking bullshit
you can't have snarky banter with dead people
don't kick someone while they're down
YOU DON'T GET MUCH MORE DOWN THAN DEAD, CLARA
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you're still plenty allowed to try to kick me
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soort capslock
Jesus Christ sorry capslock
Death is dramatic, Clara
my response is proportional
I'M SO SORRY ABOUT CLARA'S UNHEALTHY PERSPECTIVES ON DEATH
death happens to everyone
it's sad, it's horrible
but it's ordinary
PROTECT HER 8C
Even when you expect death its a big deal. It's losing someone that's a thread in your life, something unraveling. It's a person whose voice you never hear again. A piece of the universe that's gone. They stop being all made up of stars and dust and history and they become the dust. Dearh is always important because life is always important. Your life is important.
You should be... fuck, I don't know, skipping through a field of poppies or starting some bizarre hipster cactus collection or complaining about getting a mortgage or being the best teacher you can be. You shouldn't be dead.
*death fucking typos
BURY ME RIGHT FUCKING NOW
i know what it means to lose someone too soon
i know about waking up every morning and forgetting that they're six feet underground
and wanting to join them as soon as you remember
because that's where half of you is already
none of that is news
the world is terrible and it's wonderful and i never asked to be safe
i lived every single day risking my life
so there's not a bit of me that regrets my death
i regret that my best friend had to see it
and that my dad's alone
but i'm not sad about being dead
Ow ow ow
Honestly i can't figure out if I respect you or if you're a self obsessed duckhead
*don't even
But you make Cosima lose someone she loves because of your reckless bullshit then I'll set up a loop of jazzercise videos over your grave
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[Oh look it's her defensive egomania, coming to the rescue.]
look
sarissa
i can't promise nothing will ever happen to me
i'm not going to sit on my hands in a padded room
but if something does happen then i can swear to you that it won't be my choice
i'm going to be careful, for cosima and brianna
they're my family now
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You don't have to sit on your hands or not do anything. Just let those of us who aren't going to be tearing pieces of other people with us take the heat. You don't get to take risks when Cosima or Bree'll get hurt.
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you're their actual family
cosima would rather you live over me any day, i can tell you that
so stop with the pointless self-sacrifice
which i realize is a completely hypocritical thing for me to say
but i mean it
you have a huge, real family that loves you
don't be a bloody martyr
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I'm not a martyr, mate. I'm a realist.
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you were trying to take care of them in your own way
and yes it was stupid and reckless and i'm still very cross about it
but i've attempted far worse for love
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are you a real person or a heaps upset teddy bear
scientists still unable to draw a conclusion
( a moment and: )
sorry, that was dickish
the teddy bear thing and the gun thing
"who did the worst thing for love" probably isn't a competition we want to start, but
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but i accept your apology
you're not a bad person, sarissa
and for the record
i'd win that competition
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don't be so sure, teddy bear. about me not being a bad person, or the competition.
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and
i nearly destroyed the universe
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you sound a bit like my ex, honestly
except she's queen of the many circles of hell
probably doesn't like kittens
you like cats, though, so you're not anywhere near as bad as satan
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[She jests.]
but i do like cats quite a bit
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see, there you go, all your crippling flaws have been redeemed, paddington
how do you feel about sugar gliders
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but i imagine they're delightful
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what kind of meaningless existence is that
hang on
( and then, I kid you not, Clara receives all of the following attachments:
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honeyglider
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sugar gliders are amazing
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i've just never met one in
oh my god sarissa
okay that's enough pictures
jesus christ
they look like they're doing interpretive dance
how did they find a costume that small
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you talkin shit mate.jpg )
idk they probably borrowed something from you
badum tish
also how do you know they aren't doing interpretive dance
don't try to stop them from living their dreams
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you're giving me cute aggression
stop giving me cute aggression you're too annoying for that
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wait
is that cuteness so intense it becomes aggressive or like
aggression that is endearing
I'm not sure how to feel
perhaps this will help.jpg
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